It's not that I hate Christmas...

It's not that I hate Christmas, but I Hate what it has become for adults.  I remember my mother trying to make this perfect holiday every year.  I remember mom not letting people help put up the tree because she wanted it just so and when we did help,  her fussing about it until we would just leave her to it. I remember  mom sitting up late  trying to get cards out to everyone, even people she did not like.  I remember getting so much stuff that  we would just leave alot of it under the tree in boxes until forced to put it in our rooms because the tree was coming down. 
i am relizing as a mom, christmas is kinda stupid.  It's just this big commercial holiday when we try to out buy all our relatives.  Its a time when I see  toys I want to play with, but cannot figure out how to pull more space out of  our already over stuffed home.  I also relized that i just can't win in a parking lot.  If that other woman is willing to run into me to get her kid toys, she can have them.  I just want to buy groceries!  Don't get me started on cards.  I just don't see a point to them.  I don't feel special about recieving them.  I just happen to still be on your address book.  The hand cramps I get from having to write out addresses is just not worth it.  Sorry if you wanted to get a card,  I get way more warm and fuzzy from recieving a text.  It's cheaper than a stamp, even with a picture.
I can't stand people making me feel like i am a grinch because I don't want to go to a party or get together.  Its all just exhausting to me.  the one thing i liked about the holidays was that we were a nuclear family and we stayed home and spent time with each other.  I am a home body.  Really.
I am not religious, but the holiday we celebrate does not resemble anything like what it should. i am tired of the shopping orgies.  Don't get me wrong I love a good shopping spree (I have never been to an orgy), but a mass of writhing bodies is offensive when encounted at a toystore.   The whole Santa thing annoys me.  I can barely remember to take them for pictures with him.  My kids will be the first to be over it.  Hopefully it does not end up hurting them because I just can't pull it off.
What I am saying is this, I know I can't keep up with the super moms out there, and I am not going to run myself haggard  trying to do things I don't enjoy.  I am going to  try to  get the few things I like in more:
Driving around  with the family looking at christmas lights.
Making hot cocoa for the kids when treb gets home from school.
Getting the kids just a few really nice gifts they will enjoy and not having buyer's remorse later. 
Cuddles when the house gets cold and  little people  want me to keep them warm.
These are some of the most spiritual things I have experienced as a mom.